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That year was the final year of high school, and with the impending college entrance examination, we were all busy reviewing our studies under the immense pressure from teachers and parents. Our daily meals were not particularly good, consisting mostly of radishes or cabbages. In fact, other classmates were eating quite well, but only Ji Chuan and I were exceptions. His home was often empty, so who would take care of him? As for me, I had a strained relationship with my father, and my family hardly paid any attention to me. Moreover, I hadn't returned home for a long time, and no one had transferred any money into my account. Neither of us spoke up to ask our families for money, so we could only make do with our daily meals of vegetables, barely managing to eat.

Little did I know, as soon as I finished expressing my thoughts to Yao Yizhou, he appeared speechless.

Having finished the paper, it was already past 7 PM, which coincided with the peak traffic congestion in the city. I could not afford to miss this time, so I grabbed my small bag and hurriedly ran to catch the bus

In the last assignment, this kid actually got first place, a result I truly cannot accept. The heavens are really blind; after all, I stayed up all night to finish my draft, yet I ended up second to last. Is there no justice in this world!

Ji Chuan ordered the boiled fish that we all like, and he wanted to order some other dishes, but I stopped him. If we order too many dishes, we won't be able to finish them, so it's better to order less. After all, we are going to get married in the future, and it's time to start saving money.

Although I could not clearly hear what Ji Chuan and that girl were saying, it did not prevent my increasingly frantic heartbeat and my increasingly rapid breathing. Suddenly, I recalled the paper I wrote with Yao Yizhou in the classroom yesterday afternoon, and the opposing viewpoints I had with him. My mind became a chaotic mess, and I found it difficult to understand whether it was because I had spent too much time with Ji Chuan, transforming love into familial affection, or if he had made the mistake that all men might commit.

The boiled fish from Jichuan Dian has arrived

I pulled his hand down from his ear, feeling so happy that I laughed and jumped: "This time, let's go check out the newly opened Xilai Shun near the school. I still don't know what delicious dishes they have over there. What do you think?"

I cast a glance and turned to walk towards my room, having lost all interest in the woman behind me who was whispering something to her son

I closed the door to my room and threw myself onto the bed. After walking for a long time, I was extremely tired and soon began to rendezvous with Morpheus. ... In any case, no one cares where I sleep each day; as long as I don't go home, no one will call me.

Am I really happy now

It seems something is not quite right

When I wasn't going home, I didn't see anyone asking me where I was staying. It's been a week since the matter occurred, and now they suddenly want to ask me these things. It's really annoying!

Although Jichuan has already explained, my heart still raced a few times. Jichuan stroked my head and whispered in my ear: "Alright, Xiaoya, please don't overthink it. You are my girlfriend, you must trust me. We have been together for several years, and you are the best person in the world to me. If I don't cherish a girlfriend as wonderful as you, heaven will surely punish me."

Yao Yizhou intends to write from the perspective of ancient Chinese mythology, primarily describing the story of Chang'e flying to the moon. The narrative will revolve around Chang'e's journey to the moon, aiming for approximately one thousand words. I believe Yao Yizhou's perspective on the issue is quite unique, so I plan to write about Hou Yi traveling to the moon in a spaceship to find Chang'e, and then elevate this issue to a philosophical discussion.

Many girls are desperately pursuing everything they desire. Some chase after love, some pursue houses, some seek cars, and perhaps some are simply after an iPhone, while others may only want an LV handbag. When they finally possess what they long for, the unprecedented sense of satisfaction can make one feel extraordinarily happy. Some believe that what they are pursuing is worthwhile, while others think that their pursuits are not worth it, and they may turn around and discard what they have painstakingly obtained. Perhaps some are only after an LV handbag, and when they possess what they desire, the unprecedented sense of satisfaction can make one feel extraordinarily happy. Some believe that what they are pursuing is worthwhile, while others think that their pursuits are not worth it, and they may turn around and discard what they have painstakingly obtained.

"I apologize, Xiaoya, but I have some urgent matters to attend to and need to return to school for a while. You can go ahead and eat by yourself," Ji Chuan said before turning to leave, his phone still pressed to his ear, unaware of who was on the other end of the line.

I slowly turned around and returned to my bedroom

My father, enraged, stood up from the sofa and pretended to hit me. Seeing this, I took a few steps forward, walked up to him, pointed at my own face, and shouted loudly: "Go ahead! If you can hit me today, I will dare to hit Wen Shaoyan back. Do you believe it?"

The next day, after enduring a whole day of tedious classes, I felt extremely frustrated and decided to go to the taekwondo practice room to find Jichuan. To my surprise, when I reached the entrance of the taekwondo practice room, I saw Jichuan once again leaning against the wall, talking to the same woman as before.

In the days that followed, my life continued as usual. Every morning I would get up and then go to school for classes. During class, I would chat with Yao Yizhou about his proficiency in the violin or discuss some trivial matters in class. At noon, I would have lunch with Shen Xiaoyu, and in the afternoon, I would find Ji Chuan to watch him practice taekwondo. Life was simple, yet it carried a sense of happiness. The only downside was that every afternoon after the last class, that person who claimed to be my mother would call me using the number that had contacted me before, but I had never answered. To be honest, I did not regret it at all.

When the money in my and Jichuan's hands was nearly exhausted, Jichuan surprisingly took a half-day leave without telling me, went off-campus to take a job distributing flyers, and with the forty yuan he earned, bought a portion of the boiled fish that I had long been craving for

The woman gently touched Wen Shaoyan's head and led him to sit down on the sofa in the living room

Indeed, when my father saw me walk in, the anger on his face intensified: "Wen Ya, why have you always been staying away from home? What is going on?"

As I thought about this, I suddenly felt a sense of panic. When exactly did my love with Jichuan become a burden that he chose to ignore, to forget, or to abandon? I cannot even articulate whether the time we spent together was filled with more joy or more forced smiles.

Seeing that I was somewhat unusual, Jichuan began to actively explain what had just happened: "Xiaoya, please don't misunderstand. That girl was just discussing club affairs with me. Recently, many newcomers have joined the Taekwondo club, and everyone is overwhelmed. She and I were merely communicating about work, nothing more. You don't need to worry!"

Immediately after, Ji Chuan walked towards me, displaying a bright smile that I found exceptionally familiar. When he reached my side, he affectionately said to me, "Why are you standing there, little silly?"

A wave of bitterness suddenly surged in my heart, and I have lost all appetite

A trace of sarcasm flashed in my eyes: "So annoying!"

I do not care how others see me; I simply have the time, I am just willful, and I enjoy spending time on the bus during traffic jams. Who can control me? I want to waste my time this way! After all, when I return home and see other families enjoying their meals and leisure together, I often feel uncomfortable. It is better to be out of sight and out of mind, keeping a distance from them.

I have always believed in the saying: do not listen to what should not be heard, do not look at what should not be seen. Only in this way can one avoid making their world more chaotic. Each person who comes into this world already has to bear a great deal. It is already difficult to become happy, so why seek out additional suffering

Perhaps I was happy in the past, but now, the Ji Chuan who once promised not to leave me to eat alone has broken his word

Yao Yizhou and I discussed for a long time and plan to write this paper from different perspectives

My father was at a loss for words due to my confrontation, and then he suddenly slammed the coffee table, knocking over several cups on it, which startled me. However, after the initial shock, I became completely indifferent—after all, he spends the whole day either hitting or scolding me, and no matter what I do, he always has something to reprimand me about.

I remember that time when Ji Chuan placed a steaming bowl of boiled fish in front of me, and I unexpectedly shed tears without any dignity. Perhaps now it seems that a bowl of boiled fish can be ordered at any time whenever I desire it, but during that special period, the emotions and happiness that bowl of boiled fish brought me were irreplaceable by anything else. Perhaps now it seems that a bowl of boiled fish can be ordered at any time whenever I desire it, but during that special period, the emotions and happiness that bowl of boiled fish brought me were irreplaceable by anything else

"Alright, let's listen to Xiao Daigua. Wherever Xiao Daigua says to go, we will go," Ji Chuan said as he pulled me out of the practice room.

The person standing in front of me is still the Ji Chuan whom I love and who loves me...

When I heard Jichuan say this, my heart sank, and the smile that had been on my face instantly froze.

We soon arrived at the newly opened Xilai Shun restaurant near the school. It was just mealtime, and there were many people. Ji Chuan and I stood at the entrance and waited for about ten minutes before we got a table

I rolled my eyes and impatiently retorted, "What does it matter to you where I live?"

We walked hand in hand on campus without any hesitation, and in that moment, I felt an immense sense of happiness

I had estimated everything quite well, and by the time I got home, it was already past 9 o'clock. In the past, at that hour, their family would usually be in the living room watching television. I only needed to pretend I hadn't seen anything after opening the door and then walk into my own room to sleep. However, today was somewhat strange. When I opened the front door, the house was eerily quiet, with not even the sound of the television, only the ticking of the clock, creating an unsettling silence that made me feel as if I could hear a pin drop if someone were to throw it on the floor. However, today was somewhat strange. When I opened the front door, the house was eerily quiet, with not even the sound of the television, only the ticking of the clock, creating an unsettling silence that made me feel as if I could hear a pin drop if someone were to throw it on the floor

Ji Chuan laughed heartily, his laughter carefree and innocent, resembling that of a child. Seeing his smile, I felt as if I was infected by it, and I couldn't help but laugh foolishly along with him

Hearing Ji Chuan say this, I couldn't help but laugh out loud. Afraid that he might lose control and say something inappropriate, I quickly covered his mouth and playfully scolded, "Alright, now it’s time for the vows... Don’t make those nonsensical oaths, whether good or bad, I believe in you!"

The boiled fish smells delightful, and its color is also very beautiful, truly embodying the perfect combination of color, aroma, and taste. However, I could not eat a single bite; I just sat there in a daze beside the dining table until the boiled fish went from steaming hot to ice-cold, at which point I placed the money on the table and slowly got up to leave the restaurant

Just when my mind was in a state of confusion, Ji Chuan seemed to have noticed me. He waved his hand to the girl, signaling her to leave. Although the girl was very reluctant, after glancing at me, she pouted and walked away.

During this period, many matters have become intertwined, leaving me feeling distressed and confused. I have lost all interest in how that woman speaks ill of me behind my back to her son; it is merely an attempt to keep Wen Shaoyue away from me, to prevent him from getting involved with me, and to suggest that he should avoid me in the future. I do not even need to listen to know what she will say—engaging in some foul and despicable actions, the words she utters are certainly unbearable to hear.

The two of them were sitting very close to each other, and in Ji Chuan's gaze towards that girl, there flickered a kind of brilliance that felt inexplicably familiar to me; this brilliance was something I could only see when he looked at me in the past

At night, I tossed and turned, finding it difficult to sleep. I almost managed to feel a bit drowsy after counting from one duck to ten thousand ducks. However, when I reached ten thousand and ten ducks, I unexpectedly forgot where I had left off, and in an instant, all drowsiness vanished. Thus, I could only hold onto a photo of Ji Chuan, repeatedly recalling his mischievous smile in my mind, which finally gave me a slight sense of sleepiness, allowing me to fall asleep in the latter half of the night

After hesitating for a while, my father finally lowered his hand that was raised in the air. I guessed that he was afraid I would take advantage of his moment of inattention to secretly strike his precious son. After all, I do have a history, even though it was an unintentional mistake, it was still an act against his beloved son. Although many years have passed, I believe that with his exceptional memory, he would definitely not forget it.

I was talking to Jichuan about the amusing incident that happened yesterday when I had dinner with Shen Xiaoyu. Just as I had said half of it, Jichuan's phone rang. When he answered the call, his expression turned serious, and he was just listening to the person on the other end of the line. After a while, he finally said: "Alright, you wait a moment, I will be there right away"

What are you saying? Have you grown wings now? Do you still consider me your father? Do I no longer have the right to question where you go? The father seemed to be furious, his voice somewhat hoarse

I did not have the courage to snatch his phone away and hang up directly, so I could only helplessly sit in the chair and watch him gradually drift away from me

Yao Yizhou and I have completely opposite perspectives on the issue, but after I gave him a thorough beating, he had no choice but to compromise and stand on the same front as me

Promises are always beautiful; many girls often become entranced by the sweet promises made by boys, unable to extricate themselves. In fact, this is also a form of self-deception. Perhaps happiness is a kind of self-perception; if you feel happy, then you are happy. However, if you build a wall in your heart, no matter how happy you are, you will be unable to feel it.

It turns out that a subtle change has indeed occurred between him and me. The happiness I desire may have already placed a shoulder's distance between us, gradually moving further away in a direction that diverges from mine

I do not know if Ji Chuan still remembers the story between us related to boiled fish

"Xiao Ya, what do you want to eat today? I won't handle the club matters today; I'll accompany you for a meal, how does that sound?" Ji Chuan said while affectionately touching my ear.

Jichuan carefully helped me remove all the fish bones from the boiled fish, placing the boneless, delicious fish meat into my bowl, and whispered in my ear: "Xiaoya, I will never let you eat alone again, I will never allow you to be lonely by yourself."

The weekend has quickly arrived again, and the homework assigned by the teacher is somewhat difficult. Therefore, I am discussing the assignment with Yao Yizhou in the classroom. Recently, the teachers of the cultural subjects seem to be acting strangely; the homework questions are increasingly testing our cognitive abilities and becoming more peculiar. This time, the assignment is a pattern in the shape of a moon, allowing us to express our creativity and write an essay.

I steeled myself and changed into slippers, taking a few steps inside, only to see my father sitting upright on the sofa, his brows furrowed and his expression cold. I felt certain that he was waiting for me.

In the confrontation with my father, I achieved a temporary victory, which was not the process I desired, nor the outcome I sought, yet it occurred in such a tangible manner

Things do not seem to be as simple as Ji Chuan described, and the truth also appears to be more complex than I had imagined. My heart suddenly became anxious. Thus, I could not help but stop in my tracks, standing at the door of the practice room, watching Ji Chuan talk to that girl

Regarding my peculiar preference, Yao Yizhou sent me a text message that was very concise and clear, simply consisting of three words—"I disdain you"

Ji Chuan, when I had dinner with Shen Xiaoyu yesterday, I saw a man who took a rice bowl as large as the washbasin at Shen Xiaoyu's home to serve himself rice

For a long while, I said not a word, merely standing in place, quietly observing his smile, attempting to discern any hint of his intention to stray from our relationship. When I had looked for quite some time without discovering any abnormalities, my anxious heart unexpectedly calmed down, as if the strange, frantic heartbeat and bizarre suspicions that had earlier plagued me were blown away by a gust of wind coming through the window, vanishing without a trace. When I had looked for quite some time without discovering any abnormalities, my anxious heart unexpectedly calmed down, as if the strange, frantic heartbeat and bizarre suspicions that had earlier plagued me were blown away by a gust of wind coming through the window, vanishing without a trace

Is that really the case? My paper is quite sincere, and it genuinely helps to analyze the potential issues that Chang'e may encounter

What I say is exactly the same as what I think in my heart